Such incredible sadness.
I am losing my best friend, the man who I have regarded as my hero for the last 7 years. He is slipping away from me and it feels like a death. I am grieving for him as if he is dead. How fucked is that?
I know we have experienced alot of stress and painful stuff in such a short space of time compared to alot of couples but it is in the past and we can still have a great future if he would just open himself up and allow it.
There is also alot of unresolved trauma and grief for which we both need counselling. It concerns me that he just wants to brush it all under the mat and not deal with it. It happened to BOTH of us, we should be able to grieve together but it has never happened, either he was having counselling or I was, it's always been separately.
It's so wrong that our marriage is being destroyed by stuff we had no control over.
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